I’m Stuck
I’m only a week away now from meeting my goal of posting every day for a whole month. I’ve made it so far, but I can feel myself hitting a wall. It feels like I have so much and yet so little to say all at once.
So much has happened in the recent news both in my life and to the world around me that I could talk about. I could talk about schools reopening, how I feel about Afghanistan, my vacation in Chicago, the recent Texas abortion bill, the list goes on. All of these topics I feel like I want to talk about, but maybe not enough to fill my usual 500 - 800 word blog post. Every time I try, I feel like I just don’t have enough to say about it. I have a few strong opinions and that’s it. OR, I feel like I cannot offer anything new about these topics that aren’t already covered by other people on social media.
And that makes me question the nature of what this blog has become. I told people that I created this so that I could have a place to vent and rant about the things I see, hear, and do without burdening others. And yet, here I am stressing about what I’m going to post and what my friends are going to read from me. It feels like even where I thought I was being raw and open I still am trying to filter myself. I’m still trying to portray myself as this intelligent, thoughtful, caring, put-together person when in actuality I just don’t think that I am.
So to try and work on that, here are my half-baked ideas and opinions about a bunch of random topics in the recent news of my life and the world around me.
I don’t think Biden was wrong in his logic of Afghanistan. I do not know enough to say things in-depth, but it feels like US was never there to necessarily try and help the country. It felt like we had ulterior motives and for us to stay longer would have caused further complications. Obviously, how we left it is horrible, but I still don’t think the idea was bad. But could have there been better ways to do it?
Holy moly schools are struggling so goddamn bad, We have so many sick teachers and students as well as dead teachers and students. Parents are becoming less and less sure about wanting their kids back in school and it’s for good reason. If I were a parent, I would like to have my kid alive in my own home rather than risk becoming a victim every single weekday. I don’t know what more evidence people need to recognize this pandemic. Everyone is struggling by the selfishness of certain people and there need to be consequences or big action to change it.
Do we have autonomy over our bodies or no? Are we allowed to choose if we can wear a mask and get a vaccine and get an abortion or do we just have to listen to the government on this one? Because I’m gonna say we can’t have both. You cannot fight for your bodily autonomy to not wear a mask while hurting women everywhere by banning and denying them abortions. And not just the women, but anyone involved in helping the women. I don’t understand. What’s more, by doing this we are setting up so many for failure. We don’t have the infrastructure to help struggling parents and it doesn’t seem like that’s going to change soon. Why do we keep thinking women are things that men can control? Why do politicians and common folk think they know what’s best for a woman’s body without even listening to the woman? The hypocrisy is so blatant and yet here we are.
Holy moly I need a job. I know I talk about not having a dream job and how I don’t necessarily want to work, but geez this world is EXPENSIVE. And to not have an income right now is making things really difficult despite the fact that I want a job. I am willing to offer my time and services to help someone for some monetary compensation and yet people don’t want it. It feels like it’s all up to me to figure out what I’m doing which can be freeing but also so terrifying because it feels like I just don’t know what to do right now.
So yeah, these are some of the thoughts in my head right now. Just as they are without any fluff or extra context. Some things may feel dramatic or might be things you disagree with, but this post was truly just me listing things off the top of my head. It’s here where I admit I don’t know enough to write full-on blogs and that this is truly just me ranting off the top of my head about how I’ve been feeling the past few days or weeks.
If you would like to hear more though, please reach out, and let’s talk!
